Going to the lake.....

Yes we are headed up to the lake. The kayak's are calling and the kids have a new "swim raft/island" they want to try out. We are in a bit of a strange weather pattern right now, lots of rain but I'd still rather be at the cottage in the rain than at home in the rain. I'm taking my "Language of Letting Go" book and "The Girl who Played with Fire" novel. I just started it the other night and am intrigued. I used to read a stack of motivational, spiritual, self help books a day. Now I've started to ease up on myself. When you first come into AA it's like being a horse out of the starting gates, you are moving at a fast pace, but now I've slowed to a nice even run, I no longer feel the need to hurry. I have a little more trust in myself, so I can set my "all or nothing" attitude aside. AA is applied in my daily living, I don't feel so frightened that it might all vanish if I don't read 10 different meditations of self help per day. I am feeling confidence in my higher power which allows me to trust my program and my life more. I like this feeling. It's a sense of calm in the middle of a storm. I remember reading the book "Feather's from my Nest" by Beth Moore and there's a line I think of quite often "Can there be peace in the middle of chaos? Yes, as long as the foundation is strong" My foundation isn't without it's cracks, but it's definitely more settled, and I am definitely more at peace....sigh.....it's a "good" thing! Hoping you all have a great weekend.....