I've been wrestling with the decision to go or stay. And for once I'm going to listen to that gut feeling inside: it's time to move on. This blog and you bloggers saved my life. You were a constant lifeline during my first year of recovery. The fact that so many people you don't even know can extend experiences, strength, and hope to a total stranger was just empowering. You were all and will continue to be a huge part of my recovery and I will take each one of you along in my thoughts, prayers, and in my heart. I wish all of you the very best in your lives, with your families, in your programs and in your dreams. Part of my decision is based on the fact that I am blessed with a rich and full life of God, family, friends, and program. My oldest leaves for New York in less than two weeks, my two youngest are busy enjoying the pools, the sun, and the freedom from learning. My hubby and I have numerous projects in the works such as a new roof, a new bathroom, new porch etc. so time will not stretch for it all. I will peek in from time to time to see what your lives are up to. This journey of mine would not have been possible without you. I treasure you all and leave you with my favorite poem by Mary Oliver:
The Journey
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice --
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do --
determined to save
the only life you could save.
~ Mary Oliver ~
May all your dreams come true today, tomorrow and always!
Love,
DryBottomgirl :)
