Friday, September 10, 2010

Flash 55 Friday


Some are large
others small.
Square, round, and
sometimes pointed.
Some are straight,
others crooked and still
others are a "work in progress".
They can be shiny, or dull, pearly
white, coffee stained or canary yellow.
Some are real, others are false.
All need daily brushing and flossing, and
you can't eat a steak without!

Just feeling a bit silly. The weather is gorgeous and we have a busy weekend planned. Hope you all have a blessed weekend....

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


What a difference sleep makes! Headache has subsided for the time being. Fall is in the air. The high yesterday was 54. Brrrr.... but it's to be expected. Last night I met with a fellow AA member at the Alano club to talk. He and I entered AA roughly at the same time. He's relapsed twice and called me the other day asking if he could pick my brain in regards to handling a family and treatment. He recently became a stay at home dad. Quitting his full time job so his wife could continue on in her career and he could be home with their two children. I agreed to meet and talk in a public place, as there is so much 13th. stepping at the club, that I didn't want people starting any untrue rumors. We had a great 2 and a half hour talk. He's dealing with many of the same issues I am. He's struggling with turning his complete will over ( I do this 100 times a day), he's frustrated with his spouse, and frustrated with himself. I wasn't sure what I was going to say to help him before we me, but then my higher power just let it happen. I told him what I knew that worked for me. I like many alcoholics love to run the show. It's like being ringmaster for the circus. I want all the acts to go my way and have a hard time understanding why in the end, I'm all by myself. Where did everyone go? They went into the audience because they knew I would do it myself anyway...Now that I'm aware of this lovely trait I have to make those around me who have become codependant upon me, uncodependant. This doesn't happen over night. I've learned to give my husband back some responsibility. To also make him accountable for his actions, his role as husband and father,and his role in our marriage. He does these things with caution, and hesitation...and why shouldn't he? He's probably afraid of my old self showing up and yellng that he didn't do it right. Do this enough times and the circle of trust gets broken. I've also learned to confront him with or about things that effect us both without interjecting my own opinion on it. This is a tough one for me because I like to think my way is the best way. Think before you act or react. Cut yourself some slack and don't forget to thank your higher power for the success you've already had. We talked a ton, and I'm sure I'm leaving something out. When he complained that she doesn't ask a lot about his program I remind him of what my sponsor tells me. "You may want, their support, you may crave their support, but you don't need that support to recover. Once I knew that my recovery depended upon my higher power and myself, it was much easier to move forward. This is my disease, it's difficult for a non-alcohic to understand the nature of the disease. We wrapped up our talk and he said that things were much clearer than before, and I felt the same way. Put the big stick away, carve out some time for yourself, give your wife tasks to help build her trust and confidence in your changing. But most of all put your trust and will in God's hands, after all he can move mountains......

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

quick hi!

been home, been busy. Met with a friend for a few hours tonight. Great talk, and I have lots to share, but am dealing with sinus headache and running on no sleep. So wishing you all sweet dreams and goodnight....