A break in the storm......

Things are beginning to calm down. Papers are signed, interest rates dropped, and light is appearing at the end of the tunnel. When all the running around and excitement of yesterday subsided I lay on my bed last night reflecting on how far things have come from where they were a year ago. Last July everything was unraveling fast. We were about two minutes from a divorce and 30 seconds away from filing bankruptcy. I was so lost, and felt that there wasn't any answers, that there wasn't anyone who could help me. Now a year later it's almost a 360 degree angle. Wow! The promises are beginning to come true. Two weeks ago I was praying over our financials with God and I just laid it down, "we need a miracle, I want to do your will, I need your strength and guidance". How quickly he answered. In a matter of three days this week, things have changed dramatically. It hasn't always been pleasant, especially all the arguing with my husband, but it didn't lead me to run away, I didn't need to drink, I just needed to trust and be lead. I was pretty wound up last night, so I slept poorly, and woke way to early. Now I just came off of a conference call in which I barely stayed awake. I have a dull headache and my eyes are heavy. But my heart is filled with gratitude. Gratitude for walking through those doors six months ago, gratitude for my family, especially my children and husband who still love me despite everything, grateful to friends who never waver in their support, to a sponsor who makes me feel fearless, to all you blogger peeps who are such a huge part of my recovery, and to the one who deserves all the credit God. This morning I arrived at work an hour early to catch up on some things since I'll be traveling for my job tomorrow, and a coworker stopped in my office to ask how my recovery was going. I flashed him a big smile as he sat down and could honestly say "life is good". His sister is an actively using alcoholic. In and out of treatment and refuses to go to AA. My friend thinks it's because she will be held responsible and she likes to blame everyone else. (yep, been there, done that) I told him that sure you have take responsibility, and yes, at times it's yuky, but it's also worth the work. Waking up in the middle of my life has been incredible. I can truthfully say God and the program of AA have given me my life back. And I will forever be grateful for this second chance.......sigh :)