God's Wheel by Shel Silverstein
GOD says to me with a kind
of smile, "Hey how would you like
to be God awhile And steer the world?"
"Okay," says I, "I'll give it a try.
Where do I set?
How much do I get?
What time is lunch?
When can I quit?"
"Gimme back that wheel," says GOD.
"I don't think you're quite ready YET."
I came accross this poem by Shel Silverstein and I know I've read it before but today it made me laugh out loud. My daughter said, "what's so funny?" I replied, "this poem! Can you imagine God taking a lunch break from the world to say eat a peanut and butter jelly sandwich?" she thought about it for a minute and said, "I think God would have a hot dog on a bun". We also added chips and a soda for God. He doesn't have to watch his sugar and carbs and he'll need his energy to run the world. It's funny but when you are so wrapped up in yourself, such as alcoholics are you never realize that God takes second seat to you. I was so busy screwing up my own life, pleading for help and forgiveness that it never dawned on me that he was waiting for me to get out of the way! I always wanted that wheel. The wheel of control that is. What's ironic is I had zero control. I remember a few days into AA when at a meeting they were talking about how selfish this disease is and I was thinking," selfish? Come on I do everything for everybody, I sacrifice myself all the time, I, I, I,....and then my cheeks got red for I realized just how selfish I was. It takes a great leap of faith to let go of the wheel, and let God drive. I still want to reach out now and then and steer or give God directions and like my husband I'm sure he doesn't appreciate my meddling in his driving. The point being that we aren't now or ever going to be ready to drive! We need to be the passengers, let God steer us in the direction he wants to go. When I do that I notice just how smooth the ride is. When I try to drive I almost always get lost. Just my thoughts for the day, and now I'm going to go get a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, or maybe the hot dog and chips.....