Friday, July 9, 2010

Flash 55 Friday


I never expected
to find this reminder
of an event that happened so long ago.
The blue and yellow blanket
is still in the wrapper.
Would you have been a curious boy,
or a wide eyed girl?
My heart broke that winter day when you left
but how can you swaddle a baby never born?

Ten years ago this past January my husband and I lost our second child. I had just graduated from college and we were over joyed to find out after a year of trying that we were expecting. Our son was thrilled too as he had been asking for a brother or sister for a long time. I lost that baby on my husband's birthday(1/31/00). I remember arriving home at 4:00 in the morning, empty and heart broken. I was angry, and hurt and never really dealt with the pain. But all things happen for a reason and the following year our son Samuel was born on 1/31/01. My husband and Sam share the same special day. I needed to have some closure so thank you for letting me revisit this painful time and to learn to accept what will never be.....


  1. oh a heart wrenching 55...i am actually my parents second child though the first alive. sorry.

  2. I am so sorry. That must have been a terribly heart breaking time. I am glad that you have Sam.

  3. Kudos to your for working through it and showing others that they're not alone.

  4. What a miracle you received a year to the day of the moment you let something so precious go for a greater purpose.

  5. Bittersweet, indeed. We never get over losing a loved one but we do get through it. Very thoughtful 55.