Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Some very cool things......

First, headache is gone. When they finally leave I feel like doing cartwheels because it just feels so good to be pain free. The refrigerator is in my kitchen as we speak. My hubby called and said it looks great, so that's a "cool" thing to come home to! And of course the weather is not cool! Another day of high humidity, dew point, and temps. with storms tonight. Which means my daughter will be trying to crawl under my skin since she has this new found terror of storms. The boys like their father just sleep right on through them but Gracie panicks. A friend asked me the other day what I thought were some of the best benefits from AA. I had a million answers but one that sticks out in my mind is that I now have the ability to be genuinely happy for someone else. I was a pretty envious person when good things happened to people other than myself and now I find myself grinning ear to ear in sincere happiness at the good fortunes of others. I also smile and laugh way more than I used to. An inside roar has been replaces with a quiet peace. Do I still have problems? yep, do I still need to tackle character defects, and make ammends? Yep, but that quiet feeling is constant even when my life gets a little more than crazy. A hole has been filled. A piece of the puzzle that was missing for so long has been found. I have said this before and I'll say it again, but this program has been like waking up in the middle of my life. I woke up, had this great life, looked at God, and God said, "Here take responsibility and start living this life". I wanted this life I have (accept for the alcoholism) but I didn't want to take ownership of it. I was too overwhelmed. Besides I didn't deserve a better life. What? There it is the magic link to much joy: Self Worth! Last night Grace, Sam and myself watched the movie :Diary of a Whimpey Kid". Sam loves the book and I found the movie hilarious! But what I could appreciate the most was the message of not buying into what society tells us we have to be, just be yourself and let people like you for who you are, not what you are trying to be. If you haven't seen the movie, I can tell you adults like it as much as the kids do. So go get the movie, pop some corn, and settle down for a trip from the past...or present whichever way you want to look at it.......


  1. Glad you're feeling better :) It's perfect movie weather where I'm at... Wish I was watching Diary of a Wimpy Kid right now!

  2. GIRL! This post today is ONE BIG COOL THING. The way you are using this AA program of ours is a pleasure--and a lesson--to be observed and enjoyed
    by all who follow you.

    You may count me in that number of your Cheer Leaders! And believe me, I need posts like this as much as I need newbie sponsees.

    Next week at this time I'll be gone on my "ride" and will not have time or wherewithal to comment much--but I will be reading YOU every time you post, be assured!

    Thank you. May God bless you and yours.

  3. sweet! glad you have so many cool things and that the headache is gone...steve said it well and it is great to hear in your 'voice'...have a wonderful evening!